citius, altius, fortius
faster, higher, stronger
As I think of this month's SPT I realize I need all the encouragement I can get these days. Big Big Changes in the family lifestyle and Big Big decisions to make. I am by no means an Olympic athlete but feel stress of Olympic proportions these days. With Mike's new job 300 miles away, it feels right but scary all at the same time.
I missed last week because I was involved in settling Mike into his "manhole" studio in O.C. and attempting to adjust to single parenting during the week while working. The whole week was a blur, time flew and I felt like my feet were never on the ground. I had an immediate fire to extinguish when my nanny situation fell through at the last minute and quickly had to arrange my mother's transportation to Boulder City ASAP to help me out with the kids, because of course it was a busy work week. Then on Friday it was another race with time as we drove across the desert as fast as we could to this..
I want our family to live there, but I am so afraid of making the wrong choice. It feels hasty, because I want it sooo badly. When we are in Coto, it is such a HIGH! It is so green, beautiful and polished. But mostly because we are together.
As I get on my knees at night I continually ask for STRENGTH because I need it so. This is so hard but I know we can do it! I know this because my husband is finally enjoying his career! YAY!!