14.9.09

Diary of a Makeup Artist #21 - CRAZY!

First of all I must tell you that I am up way too late to be held accountable for anything I am about to say. My son went to Idaho this weekend to visit his BFF (do boys have BFFs?) Curtie. Once upon a time he lived across the street from us and it was little boy bliss to have your best bud available at almost anytime. Since we both have moved Curtie has yet to be replaced. Don't think he ever will. It's a good an bad thing I think. I wish for my son to have that close relationship and feel like he has access to a great friend at anytime. It just stinks that his buddy is so far away.

I digress, I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself because I have to work alot this week. What's that you say? Crazy Lady? ... You are correct! Why in a recession when people are hurting for work am I having such an attitude about working? I do this all the time you know. Its totally stupid of me. Crazy.

Being a freelancer has its pros and cons for sure. People always say, "Cool you get to work whenever you want." Yeah, I'd like to think that, but the reality is, that my bank account dictates when I work not my "want" button. Yes, I am at the mercy of the almighty dollar. It's Feast or Famine people, you gotta take everything you can get. When the opportunity comes you have to gobble it up while the gobblin is good.

Don't get me wrong, love/like my job! If I have to work, this is what I'll do.... (for now). Who knows what the future will bring. I see change ahead, I think Minka will concure. (if you haven't met Minka, you need to). What that change will be, I've yet to figure out. Deep down, I envy Stay at Home Moms. I tried to be one once, but guess what I was? Crazy! Yup thats me, sad I know. Maybe its that whole you want what you don't have. I wanna career, I wanna stay home, I wanna career, I wanna stay home... Crazy!

Okay I'm seriously rambling. Anyway I'm blessed to be working, thank you HF for the work. Pitty party over...!

See you all next week when I'm NOT working and freaking out because my calendar is empty.

post signatureCrazy by Gnarls Barkley

11 comments:

The Redhead Riter said...

"I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself"

Allow yourself some time to feel sorry for yourself as long as you see the light at the end of the tunnel soon. YOU can do anything...remember that! ♥

Amanda.Sedeno said...

Hey Mary!! Im sue you will be great whether you are working with makeup or not :D Have a great week!!!

Bren's Life said...

Hope your week goes by fast & you get plenty of rest with all that work...
Good luck & have some fun in with that work!!!!

Jessica said...

We stay at homers go crazy too. I feel bad for working moms. I don't know how they do it!

Marcie said...

I'm so with you. I envy the stay at home crew, but after a few weeks of summer, I'm looking for something to keep me busy. And then when school starts again, I'm back to wishing for lazy mornings. Aaaahhhh, I guess the grass is always greener and all that.

Love the "cartoon you" on the side. So so so cute!

Lene said...

I think we are all a little bit crazy...that's what keeps us sane.

Jeanette said...

We all have pity parties once in awhile no matter what we're doing in life. Hang in there. I love reading about your adventures.

SPEAKING FROM THE CRIB said...

i think we all struggle between what we have and what we think we want. it's tough to be happy with the what we have right now stuff :) visiting from SITS

WhisperingWriter said...

Good luck with everything!

Janiece said...

You totally crack me up!
Maybe the next time the son makes a trip to Idaho you could come visit too!

Enjoy your week!

Tammy Howard said...

I want to stay home and I want a career, too. When they told us we could have it all, they lied.